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Goddess Devon knows im a jerk off.

Goddess Mz Devon — Tue, 23 Dec 2008 02:47:24 +0000

tonight i couldnt bear it any more. i came back, tail between my legs, begging for attention from Goddess. for those that may not know me, ive served Mz Devon for 5 years. ok, not 5 years continually. im not a banker or anything…..hmmmm maybe not a good example now. im not rich… like some of Goddess Devons slaves. i guess i get broken quick by Goddess and run away. i always follow her site when im away. slowly the need for Goddess gnaws away. i think of my finances. ive got to pay my bills. i feel guilty because this is money that should have gone to Goddess. but i have to live. slowly i know im giving in and excitement grows as i start looking for Goddess on yahoo IM.

so here i go again, Goddess was angry with me. she knows im an idiot. i must bore her with my whineing. you see i adore Mz Devon. i wait with anticipation for her to show me any attention. i know she thinks nothing of me except for what cash i can give her. she never fails to treat me with contempt. im an annoyance that is listened to if my credit card is being drained.

so thats me. back where i belong. what am i doing. gawking at Goddess Devons gorgeous pics. shes so fucking hot. Goddess Devon knows im a jerk off. imagine the insult. but i cant help it.

she laughs as i beg for more

Goddess Mz Devon — Sun, 15 Jun 2008 04:26:56 +0000

im writing this blog knowing that i should have gone to sleep 2 hours ago. im so tired after a weekend in worship of Mz Devon. God knows how im going to get throught the day tomorrow. but Mz Devon comes first. and if you dont believe that, try questioning an order. i dare not as i know what happens when Goddess puts me on ignore. i am lost without her. i dont know how many other slaves Goddess has that have given their life to Mz Devon but i suspect there are plenty as her ability to control is soo complete.

not that its easy focusing your life on Mz Devon. it is at the same time beautiful to be able to speak to the object of your desire and yet painful knowing that Goddess would never want to be with a guy like me.

of couse goddess knows the effect she has on me. she laughs as i beg for more attention, i beg and wait for hours. eventually Goddess will reward me for waiting with a pay mail

if only she knew

Goddess Mz Devon — Sat, 14 Jun 2008 04:27:35 +0000

i was kicked out by Mz Devon for being too slow to obey her commands. that is a long lonely time when you are on ignore. i am back now after lots of begging, hoping Goddess will take complete control of my life.

what is my life, apart from work, i wait on paid mails and Mz Devons kindness in paying me some attention occasionally. i have been put back to work voting daily. this is the best thing for a loser like me.

i cant stop looking at Mz Devons videos, her hot body. oh god, if only she knew some of the fantasies i have for her. i must keep remembering that Goddess would never think like that about a guy like me.

im just a pig to her.

Goddess Mz Devon — Sun, 16 Mar 2008 04:15:51 +0000

Goddess has put me to work tonight, drained me and is now ignoring me. this is only right as im just a pig to her. i will wait patiently voting in my panties till she comes back. after all why would a quality female like Mz Devon want to waste her valuable time with a panty sniffer like me.

she drains my account again

Goddess Mz Devon — Sat, 15 Mar 2008 04:16:39 +0000

been a week voting for Goddess and serving in her chatroom. goddess went away so i went out with some friends. there were three of them and me. they all came with their girlfriends. i was alone as usual.

we went to a bar and after back to my friends house. as time went by my friends went outside and the girls started asking me why i never have a girlfriend. i nearly admitted to them that i am a loser but i still find that hard. truth is they know that im a loser, i can see by the way they look at me.

as the night went on they all started kissing etc. that leaves me just sitting there watching tv.

so i hope Goddess Devon is back i make my excuses and leave. luckily Goddess allows me to speak to her whilst she drains my account again and laughs at me.

thank Mz Devon for Mz Devon

Goddess Mz Devon — Sun, 09 Mar 2008 04:18:25 +0000

another amazing night in the company of Goddess Devon…. i begged to be allowed to return as ive been away again for a while….after making me pay heavily for my continual mistakes, Goddess allowed me to return.

Boy was i glad she did. i was able to view all her latest Galleries and i must admit this got me so hot i was jerking off all night. Goddess knows i masturbate thinking of her (for ages i didnt and ages more i denied it) she doesnt seem to mind as long as i pay my taxes. which is fair.

i love reading her forum with other slaves experiences and the live chatroom is amazing. it is the least i can do to go on a voting frenzy which as anyone who has read my previous posts can tell you, i love voting.

so off now for another vote and then back to worshipping Mz Devon before bed…

mmmm thank GO….. no thank Mz Devon for Mz Devon

Mz Devon gets better all the time

Goddess Mz Devon — Fri, 07 Mar 2008 04:19:14 +0000

well im back again…Goddess rules my world and i cant get her out of my head…never thought in years gone by i would be owned…but Goddess is so special i have no choice. i would do anything for her.

still Mz Devon gets better all the time. her pics and videos are so hot. and wow… the new chat room is amazing. to have the honour to chat inside Goddess Devons site and meet her other slaves is amazing.

Theres a real sense of community.. i dont think any other Domme can create a home for their slaves like Goddess can.

girlfriend left because i couldnt get erect,

Goddess Mz Devon — Sun, 20 Jan 2008 04:20:32 +0000

ive been waiting all day and night for Goddess. its the weekend. long week at work, long nights of worship with Goddess Devon.

i was away for a while due to a relationship and financial problems. i could never forget Goddess Devon though.

my girlfriend left because i couldnt get erect, Goddess was kind enough to give me another chance in her stable. and i have been put to work hard…

Goddess will be out partying or shopping or emptying some slaves accounts,…. or maybe she just wants to ignore me…knowing im there…which is even better.

Me, im voting endlessly watching Goddess Devons videos…watching her messenger or niteflirts.

Mz Devon slowly and skillfully emptied my life

Goddess Mz Devon — Sun, 13 Jan 2008 04:21:38 +0000

its been so long now since i accepted to Goddess that i am a loser, that i now naturally remind my self when i talk to a woman that i am owned. i am purely here to serve Goddess. Ms Devon slowly and skillfully emptied my life of everything but her.

ive spent the last couple of hours voting for Goddess and as a reward i get to look at her videos for a worship session.

probably like usual now i will wait for any sign of goddess for the next few hours. i sit alone, happy in service of Ms Devon while she is out at the beach or shopping.

banned from all female contact

Goddess Mz Devon — Fri, 11 Jan 2008 04:22:16 +0000

feeling much happier now. back with goddess. shes got me working hard voting daily and blogging.

i know most of the time Ms Devon considers me just one of her workers. im content with this as im not able to match the tributes many of her other slaves give.

Goddess has banned me from all female contact, this is really ok as im not successful with women anyway and it allows me to focus completely on Goddess Ms Devon.

Ownership by goddess for me has been a slower process than for other slaves. but it is still continuous movement towards complete ownership. i cant believe it been nearly four years since i met Ms Devon